Ignore everything 

In my last post. Apparently I am a pathetic lost person. My entire world blew up yesterday and now I am questioning my entire life. At least I still have my child. And I know what someone else is missing out on. 

How does one put their heart back together after the person who held it smashed it to a thousand pieces? Is there a way? How do you recover from betrayal? Does anyone have a good break up station on Pandora to listen to?

Scripture Sunday 2-2017

I don’t know about y’all but I need this verse spoken into my life every day. I have been so sick lately and I’ve just been worn. 

If you get a chance: listen to Worn by Tenth Avenue North. Perfectly describes my life the last few years! Haha 😉 have a beautiful Sunday! 

“Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”

‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭40:28-31

Sooo… about the last few months….

How has everyone been? Good to hear. Good to hear. Things have been going here. We bought a house and closed on it in December. Have already freshened up the kitchen with fresh paint and it looks so much better than it did. There are so many things we are hoping to do here, now that it’s ours and we can do wild and crazy things! 😉 all the rooms need done and there is painting the outside, etc…. can’t wait to share some of our projects. We have one that we are slowly getting to: fixing up the living room. Because no one should paint a wall poop brown y’all. No one. 

There might even have been some talk lately about bringing something I used to do out of retirement. Crazy exciting!:) 

I have a new nephew, he is 4 months old now, and that brings our nephew total up to 4 on my side and one on B’s. And I also have one being born in March! Thank the good Lord for nephews! They give Aly and I kids to love on and send back to their parents! Haha 

What have you all been doing?


“The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is upon me, for the LORD has anointed me to bring good news to the poor. He has sent me to comfort the brokenhearted and to proclaim that captives will be released and prisoners will be freed. He has sent me to tell those who mourn that the time of the LORD’s favor has come, and with it, the day of God’s anger against their enemies. To all who mourn in Israel, he will give a crown of beauty for ashes, a joyous blessing instead of mourning, festive praise instead of despair. In their righteousness, they will be like great oaks that the LORD has planted for his own glory.” Isaiah‬ ‭61:1-3‬ ‭NLT‬‬

I’ve been thinking about freedom a lot lately. Earlier this year, it was my turn to lead our study, and that was my subject: freedom in Christ. 

Isaiah 61 is part of what I was reading today, and I thought I would share my thoughts with you. 

Our freedom isn’t found in our country, or a leader, or really in anything. Our freedom is found only in Christ. Anything else is false. 

The Lord has released us as captives from our sin! He has shined a light into the darkness of our lives that leaves us blinking like a newborn exposed to light for the first time. He brings us comfort. He wants to show us the beauty that He has put around us, even in the ashes of what we thought were our greatest dreams. He will clothe us in radiant garments of praise, not cloak us in the bleakness of despair. 

So the question I have: why are we not living like we have been radically saved? Why are we not living and loving those around us like Christ has called us to do? Why are we hiding our freedom to proclaim Christ’s goodness and glory to all we know? 

Part of our issues stem from fear: fear of changes, fear of ridicule, fear of not being “normal”. You know what though? Life is all about changes. And it’s okay to not be normal. Embrace the changes. Enjoy the life God has given you. Love the people around you like Christ has loved you. See those who are on the opposite side of you with the eyes of God. I hope you are out there living a life that has been radically saved by the grace of God. 
P.S. None of this is political. I’m just busy over here trying to find my way out of the darkness that has been stealing over me the last year. 

It’s all a show.

My mind is a constant jumble of trying to solve all the world. And that made me realize something. We are on Facebook, Twitter, news sites, etc too much. Everyone has an opinion of what everyone else, everywhere else should be doing, how they should go about it, why they are wrong about this, etc. when did we become those people? When did it become so important to fix everyone else while ignoring our own messy lives? 

To escape from all of that I will turn on the tv and watch hgtv. And  you know what? That’s not any better. I judge those people’s choices all the time too. Lol why would you choose that house? That color? Those floors? 

Do you know what we present to the Internet world though? Perfection. Or perceived perfection. No one wants that person they went to high school with to know what a mess they really live in. So we clean and shine up areas of our life to share with all our “friends”. An illusion. A show. 

 Facebook. Instagram. Pinterest. Hgtv. All the places we go to look at the glossy, beautiful, shiny places we would be delighted to live in. Those are an illusion. We see a tiny, cropped version of “perfection”. Ever wonder where those people really store the muddy shoes that come in? How does the sight of a basket filled with things not drive them crazy? The extra rolls of toilet paper, the trash cans in a kitchen for crying out loud. Heck I’m always curious as to where they keep their daily vitamins so they remember to take them!  Don’t their families see flat surfaces and leave all the things all over? Because mine does. 

The perfect picture is an illusion. 

Above: a cropped, “perfect” shot.

Below: my current reality 

Why are we so unwilling to embrace the daily mess of our own lives? Why do we want our peers to think we have it all together? What is so wrong with being the broken people that Christ redeemed? 

Why do we need to feel like we have it all figured out and are on top of the world? 

I will never have it all together. And that shouldn’t be my goal in life. 

Let the redeemed of the Lord tell their story— those he redeemed from the hand of the foe

‭‭Psalm‬ ‭107:2‬ 

who gave Himself for us, that He might redeem us from every lawless deed and purify for Himself His own special people, zealous for good works.

‭‭Titus‬ ‭2:14‬ ‭

being justified freely by His grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus

‭‭Romans‬ ‭3:24‬